It just keeps playing in my head.
“I’m coming home, I’m coming home, tell the world I’m coming home.”
My business started in 2011 out of my deep desire to be at home with my one year old daughter Zoe and put my entrepreneurial spirit to work. I started creating, and it felt to so good to have someone pay for something I created with my hands.
But I knew there was more.
I started putting my education and passion to work to coach female business owners. I didn’t have a clue what I was doing. In 2012 my passion and creativity collided when I started End Sex Trafficking Day after seeing an eye-opening documentary about modern day slavery.
This movement catapulted my business, my credibility, my reputation. TEDx, Marie Claire, USA Today, Huff Po all of a sudden I was being featured all over the place and believe me it took a lot of asking. I then created a one of a kind course called Rocket Your Revolution and was working one-on-one with business owners who wanted to build a do good campaign into their business as I had.
Something was missing.
I decided in May of 2014 to take my site down while I figured it out at a retreat I was speaking at in France. In the beginning of 2015 I relaunched with a focus on helping women make real progress on their big ideas with action and heart.
My frustration in myself began to grow as it still didn’t feel right — something was missing.
You may have heard some or all of the story above, but now I’m going to tell you a story you haven’t heard.
I may have managed to graduate with a Masters degree in 2005 and all looked wonderful, but inside I was a mess. I had been in a relationship with an abusive alcoholic for 3 years, partying almost every night and just so desperate for real love that I would accept any kind of love. Until one day I went to a diverse church across the street — my world was forever changed. Not only because I grew up Lutheran and this church had a message that kept me awake but because my eyes were opened to God’s love for me and he saved me from myself and my destruction right then and there.
Within a few months I started dreaming crazy dreams. Seeing myself on stage with my future husband, seeing lives impacted, seeing crowds of people and a big responsibility. When I met my husband in 2008 and shared these dreams with him, and he shared his with mine, I knew he was the one as God had been showing us the same things. A compassionate place with a heart for God that helped dreamers ignite the change in their life that they were dreaming of.
In January of 2015, my husband started that place, our church, The Meeting Place. I began to see myself leading retreats, encouraging women to live their best life and continuing my work with EST Day…the very work I saw myself on stage doing in my dreams ten years earlier.
But out of fear and a lack of faith I held onto my business, the business I adore yet the business that still didn’t feel 100% me. Well on May 15th, 2015 I realized after an awesome message from a very dear mentor of my husbands, I realized my time is done with my coaching business and I must embrace my role at The Meeting Place and serve, lead and create with my husband so that we can fully embark on this wild, challenging and blessed journey ahead of us.
I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t sad, but more so, I’m thrilled. You see, my husband and I work so well together and we’ve never had anything to work on fully together…and well, this is it.
What’s next?
A few things I’m certain about at this point, I’m still going to be writing and teaching from here about the things I want to share and I’m still working on End Sex Trafficking Day. I’m still going to put out Tea Talk TV episodes, because I love making them.
More will come and I know it’s going to be bigger and more amazing than I could have ever imagined. It’s never too late to fully step into your starring role as one of my mentors Tanya Geisler reminds me of.
It’s come full circle
I came home and started my business and today I feel like I’m coming home to step into what I’ve always meant to be doing. My business prepared me in so many ways for the women I will be leading at The Meeting Place.